y muz he shatter my dreams again n again n again? i juz dream of him tat day...it was like...so sweet...so nice like tat...but den the next day...he say he dun like mi thru msn...haiz...my beautiful dreams r gone...i noe...i should not be still looking forward to patch wif him again...but really could not help...mayb i really lub him lots...so wad if i lub him...does he lub mi? i dun tink so ba...haiz...i noe i wasn't perfect...wasn't perfect to b wif him ba...but no one is tis world is really perfect de lohz...haiz...forget it lahz...mayb i really not the gal of his dreams ba...haiz...
to my fren out there...no worries kae? i will b fine...promise...but...dun ask mi to fang qi on him...i really really lub him lots...tis feeling wun change...mayb when i found another guy tat is much more better den kk....n i will b able to fall in luv as deeply as kk ba...really...no worries...i promise i wun do silly stuffs for him...n i still wanna my rest of life being ur frens wor~!
to kk: erm....i noe u dun like mi...or even dun like mi...but wad i wanna say is tat...i dun care whether u lub mi or u dun lub mi...but for as long as i lub u...i will go on waiting for ya...!

2 more days n sch will re-open...n i juz onli finish my chem holiday...haiz...haven done my maths holiday hw...let mi c i have been doing tis few days after my camp~!

all the bz days have pass...2 weeks of extra lessons...a week of self study lessons...n oso 3 days camp...all over le...waking up on a monday morning at 9 plus...feeling so bored...got nth to do...den diana call mi...asking mi whether i wanna play bball...haiz...i dun even do sports man...y on earth she ask mi tat...nvm lahz...went wif her n some other fren...but i wasn't play...before tat...went to hua's hse to get some stuffs...den saw her youngest bro which is 3 yrs old tis yr...by the name of kenneth ah...ahaha...i was shock by the name lahz...den oso a sis which is onli one tis yr...forget wad name liaoz...enjoy playing wif her bro...hahaha...hao ke ai sia~! next time go kidnap her bro home...haha...no lahz..just kidding...den went down to sembawang to meet shixing n elina...haha...they play bball there mahz...ahhaa...den there is a maris stella guy playing there lahz...berli act lehz...not i wanna say him ah...but is no choice lahz...ahhaa...berli suay lehz...i drop my fone...at tat bball court...den hor...cover everything flies...everyone looking at mi wif a wow...but no one cares to help mi pick up...so sad~! tupid sia~! haiz~!
tink cuming PMS liaoz lahz...seems so fustrated today...i not a calender lehz...y everyone keep asking mi when we going back to school...haiz...wad hw we have...haiz...i have enuff of repeating...i will write it here...u all c for urself~!

hw for tis holidays:
chem - all r notes on a piece of paper given by ms tan...pls go check it out...n rem there will b a test when we return back for the holidays...
maths - pls refer to ten yr series...november 2003 paper 1 n paper 2...
poa - pls refer to the green SAP ten yr series...there will b 6 yrs of MCQ...

we will b returning to school on the 28 of june...pls complete ur holidays~!

hi ya all~! back from my camp liaoz~! missing everyone sia~! i m dead damn tired now sia...although have slept for 6 hrs...but no choice lahz...need to get out n do hw...have not touch bks for 2 days le...cannot slack again on the 3rd day...hahaha....let mi fill u all in wif my camp details...
during the 1st day...we were like having bbq...got hotdogs...crab sticks...n oso not forgetting the chicken wings tat joycelyn has put the seasoning...the chicken wigns r nice...coz i ate 2...hahaha....tat my dinner liaoz lohz...hahhaa...seems little wor..but quite full lohz...coz i dun eat much lahz..dun really like bbq either...hehex~! den after tat got wad trustwalk ah...juz simply like walking ard the school lohz...but so damn scary...coz i heard abt stories from ms jenny lim abt tis school ma...on the field...n they r walking one round ard the field..was like so damn scared sia..holding on the sleve of wee min n the hands of hui xin...i no use lahz...so damn timid...hahahax~! den they was like walking out to the top level of the building n went down lohz...wah lau...the kenny sir was behind mi...den he scare mi sia...argh~! almost heart attack sia~! guys...next time at nitez better dun scare ppl...ren xia ren hui xia si ren...lolx~! forgetten wad time all the activites have finish...but i was sleeping at ard 2.30am...
wake up at 5.30am...my tummy feel so painful...i got no idea y too...haiz...den forget it liaoz...try to ta han the pain...doing pt wif them in the morning...trying to jian fei...ahhaha...eric came ard at 8am...brought mi n some fren breakfast...haha...really thankz him a lot sia~! hahahax~! after breakfast...sec 1 to 3 went for lessons...n it free time for us~! went into the rm again...sitting there chatting...till i fall asleep...haha...woke up 45 mins after tat...so pai seh sia~! they r still toking...haha...went into the guys' rm...den saw eric sleeping there wif alfred...haha...den went back to my own rm...haha...den huimin wanna play bball...den went downstairs lohz...den play play a while...melvin came...den eric woke up liaoz...den play play together lohz...den at 1pm...got survival cooking ah...my stomach was like hurting so much...didn't how the mood to cook...all i wish tat he was here wif mi...an wei mi...haiz...too bad he wasn't...imagine whole day tat he will come here...n say he miss mi damn much..but i tink i tink too much le lahz...hahax~! after survival cooking...got area cleaning...i wasn't doing much...till ms tan ask mi n huiming go n clean red cross rm...den went in...clean clean a bit here n there....den my tummy really real damn pain...den siokmei bring mi go c ms tan...den i went hm lohz...hahaha...bring everything back...went hm...den my mummy gif mi dunno eat wad...den feel much better liaoz...den i went back to camp again lohz...hahaha...dun wan to miss out anything ma...hahhaa...den was like having friendship dance wif them...den play treasure hunt...not i wanna say lahz...but tis school really damn scary lohz...really not to tink so much...but the eerie feeling is there lahz...almost brust into tears outside 4e3 n 4e1 classrm...dun ask mi y...got no idea either....haiz...forget it forget it...all over liaoz...lolx~! den went for nightwalk...coz of some cadets...berli tired...den we nv finish thru the whole journey...although nv finish thru the whole journey..but still enjoyable....hehe...sleep ard 2 plus yesterday...coz was on the fone wif junjie...tok craps a lot...still say wanna tok till 5...but i was too tired...den hang up the call...hahahx~!

will b leaving the hse in a few more hours...haha...going camp ma...so wun b blogging till i m back...hahhaa...although going for onli 3 days...but still hope u guys out there take gd care of urselfs...kae? weather berli hot nowadays...drink more water....those hu r still studying...better hurry up n finish ur holidays hw...hahaha...n to those going into or back to poly lifes...enjoy urself n oso study hards....hahaa...i can't go on n on...coz i seems to b sssssssooooooo naggy~! hahaa...kae lahz kae lahz...need to pack my stuffs liaoz...hahaa...to him...i noe u r in luv wif another gal liaoz...mayb i oso noe it who...but...my luv for u will continue on n on n on....been waiting for 2 yrs liaoz...i still can wait for a few more yrs...i'm serious...my luv for u...is as deep as the sea...no matter wad happen...i will b waiting for ya...now n always...i luv ya always...

a day more...den will b having camp liaoz...haven even pack yet sia...die liaoz lohz...should b packing at tis time now...but here i m...online...listening to songs...n oso writing blog...haha...later my mama got to nag at mi again sia...
saw him in sch today...quite a few times...1st time c him today...is in the morning...when i was toking outside my class lohz...he was walking back to his class...guess he saw mi lahz...but he seems to avoid mi...haiz...2nd time saw him...is a few mins b4 break time...at the canteen...he was sitting wif two gals lohz...tink he saw mi too~! he is like kinda behaving close to one of the gurls...haiz...hu noe tat the next gal he will b wif..rite? ahha...the 3rd time i saw him was at the canteen again...while i was like doing my history stuffs...he was there wif a grp of guys n gurls...toking n crapping...haiz...den the 4th time i saw him again...was at the bball court next to the canteen...he was playing bball wif 2 gurls there...haiz...sad sia~! i felt so jealous...wonder y too...haiz...the last time i saw him for the day...is at the bball court...when he is playing bball wif his fren...sitting at one of the bench there...the stupid old zhang was there...toking craps...n tat tupid kent came to sch too~! omg~! he look so gu niang...from afar...it seem like a gal...toking down guangyang roads...haiz...kent ah...go cut ur hair lahz...no money i can sponser u de...haha...BMW was here too....haiz...
i tink...today is the lastest i stay in school...during these extra n self-study lessons...went out of sch at ard 2.20pm like tat...angela damn hyper-active today...playing bball...n running ard...like nobody business...is she like to slim down? ahhaha...no idea lehz...hahaa...for mi...not as hyper-active as angela lahz...didn't play...juz sitting down n watch...hahaha....i dun do sports de lahz...hahaha...

today is tuesday...counting down 3 mroe days...n i will b having my annual red cross camp...everyone seems excited having camp lehz...i feel no excitment nor any happiness...hehe...i dunno y either...it a 3-days camp...from fri 5-pm to sun 11-pm...seriously...not much of feeling of going lehz...but last yr liaoz...den enjoy lohz...like kenny sir say...relax n enjoy slacking in the camp...haha...but i have nv likes camps...hahaha...oh ya...i haven even pack sia...die liaoz lohz...haha...lata no clothes to wear...hahaa...gotta miss u guys...hahaha...

went out today...got the bk tat i wan...ahha...it from the movie lahz...the day after tml...dunno y so interested in tis movie...ahaa...tis is the last bk in popular man...coz i was inside the popular for liek half an hr...den i was toking to diana n juz look thru some shelfs...tis bk is like juz rite in front...so lucky...ahhaha...

it so damn hot today...the sun so bright...but den...went out today lohz...even thru my body is at orchand...but my heart is at bishan...haha...wanna c zhang feng qi daniel...hahaa...he hao ke ai ah...tat day saw him thru 933 web cam...so cute cute...but dunno y all my frenz dun like lehz...hahaa...nvm lahz...i like can le...all the idols i like ard my age de lehz...starting like mengze of 5566...he is 19 tis yr...den feng qi is onli 18 tis yr...hahaa...hu noe i might the next one tat appear on the news as feng qi fei wen gf...ahhaha...tink too much liaoz...hahaha...kae lahz kae lahz...was at orchand wif xing...diana...n joyce...even thru i m late for an hr...but when i reach there...they like so happy to c mi...ahhaa...was like walking ard far east...den saw BMW...hahhaa...he was there wif his fren...he is damn skinny...wonder which poly he go liaoz...hahaa...den from far east walk to heeren den to cinleisure...orchand really small...getting more n more boring...coz been there too often...den diana suggest...keep urself at home for like half a yr...den come out go orchand walk away...might find a difference there...hahhaa...she somehow make sense...maybe we really ought to keep ourselves at hm...getting such poor results...still going out everytime...haha...oh ya...rem sth....when i was at cinleisure...there was tis guy...tink got 20 odd liaoz...den hor...wif another 2 guys...walking towards my direction lahz...coz xing inside the shop...den i was outside...den hor...tis guy walk walk walk...den he like looking in my directions...wif a berli fierce n buay song look....keep using his fingers n pointing in my directions...n keep on mumbling to his fren...den when he pass by mi...den i turn ard n look at xing inside the shop...hu noes tat guy still looking in my direction...still having his fingers pointing in my direction...i dunno...really dunno...is he scolding mi or sth? haiz...so scary...haiz...even thru i was like spending the whole afternoon at orchand...n looking at so many shuai ge...but den hor...he is still inside my mind...haiz...mayb he have already planted the seeds there...unable to b pluck up liaoz...haha...really wonder how he is today...haha...tink end here liaoz...take care wor~!

i fang qi le...i let go le...saw his msn nicks a few times...wonder who did he meant...but i tink wun b mi lahz...from young till now...haven been lucky lohz...onli last yr...happen to get the chance to go to 5566 concert wif out paying a single cent...haha...he in luv wif another gal...y should i drag now? i luv him lots...how i wish i could shout to the whole world..." I LOVE U K... PLZ LET MI B UR GAL!" haiz...but...i tink better not...he got someone tat he really luv le...i can't b selfish either...even though luv is selfish...i let him go...let him find his own happiness...no matter how much my heart hurts...no matter how much tears r dropping...but i let him go...hope ta hui huo de bi wo gen xing fu...i gif him my best wishes...